Why did you HAVE to strike up a conversation with me out of blue…of all days. ON VALENTINES DAY? and ask me if I have any PLANS? it’s like you’re literally TRYING to toy with my emotions/be a dick for your ego or something. like honestly I like to think the best of people, but that’s the more preferable thought, with the alternative being…you’re just THAT stupid. Nobody is THAT stupid.
AND WHAT WERE THE FUCKING ODDS THAT I HAD TO RUN INTO YOU AT THE SAME PLACE AT THE SAME TIME [while I was trying to genuinely enjoy life and make the most the day and pho-get about it] NOW I SEEM LIKE A CREEPY STALKER OR SOMETHING UGH WHY QWHY WHY WHY WHY
How do you deal with being lonely? I feel it too, acutely, and it's hard not to be pathetic and beg my friends to hang out with them. And sometimes they're the root of the problem you know, they do things and forget to invite me and it's not on purpose or anything but still stings. Welp that was emotional sorry.
It’s OK. I actually want people to generally be more open about their feelings even if means being emotional, because I feel like talking about things is healthier.
How do I deal with being lonely? I guess I recognize that it’s just a part of the human condition, and everyone has got to “pay their dues” once in a while. Of course there are some people that feel more lonely than others on average…you know, things that cause depression: thwarted belonginess, perceived burdennes etc etc. However, personally i’ve found that
these problems can be mitigated by talking them out by someone who will listen —> this can help anyone feel less alone. i find that this is often achieved by reaching out to others—even if it feels like no one is there for you, if you just put yourself out there you will often be surprised at how many people want to help you and care about you. The hardest part is dragging yourself out there if you believe that nobody loves or cares about you/you hate yourself. Often even just a change of environment, like even fresh air, or being forced to be social…helps to force me to be happy and actually changes my mood of loneliness…
So yeah, it helps to 1. have the right the people 2. not get stuck wallowing in your own pit of self pity.
My life also changed after I took the Myers Briggs personality type test. There’s some consolation in the fact only a very select few people in this world who can identify like yourself and can connect with you.
The interpretation of this data indicates that not only are skills of comparison and understanding of eventual outcomes harbored in the prefrontal cortex but the prefrontal cortex (when functioning correctly) controls the mental option to delay immediate gratification for a better or more rewarding longer-term gratification result. This ability to wait for a reward is one of the key pieces that define optimal executive function of the human brain.
Translation: your brain tells you the same thing britney does ’ya gotta work bitch’
“Lolita is not about love, because love is always mutual; Lolita is about obsession, which is never, ever love, and Nabokov himself was so disappointed that people did not understand this and take away the right message… For how could anyone call this feeding frenzy of selfishness, devouring, and destruction “love”?”— In her preface to LOLITA, Mary Gaitskill reflects on a review by Vanity Fair’s Gregor von Rezzori in which he calls the novel: “The only convincing love story of the century” (via bregma)
fck i honstly give up. I know that it’s a problem of mine vaguely, because I’ve picked up on similar sentiment. But.I guess I didn’t know exactly HOW bad I am at that until you helped me explicitly see it from your point of view. So thank you for being drunk and serving it to me straight up…
I’ve got to work on it. hanging out with people. it’s like something I ahve to remember to do…which sounds completely rude, but introverted problems ahhh! I always joke that I need an app that reminds/alerts me to socialize with certain people. And like, that’s not even joke.
Yet sometimes I feel like if I have to beat myself to do something then is it really genuine at all? And would it be better to keep them at that closeness level because I don’t want to force something that isn’t genuine?!
scratch that. I went to Pizza Kingdom at midnight tonight and the people there were so nice they gave me a free soda just for being chinese [yaaaaay racial profiling] and the cook accidentally made me a 13” instead of the 10” I ordered so I got 3” of pizza for free pretty great right NOW the day has been made. simple pleasures in life, man.